I finally submitted my application to the DC (e)merge art fair yesterday. [link].  As always, I waited until the last minute as yesterday was the deadline.  I almost chickened about a dozen times.  This is the biggest show I've submitted to so far, and had more requirements than I'm used to.  You had to write a one page description of your project, create a diagram of what it will look like, and include your bio/cv.  I hadn't yet written a formal bio/cv yet.  I started Friday night with the project, and submitted everything by about 5:30pm yesterday.  I guess that's not too bad, as I have been known to submit art right before the midnight deadline.  

This was a really painful process for me.  It's much easy for me to just submit art, but to submit a write up on what I will be doing is much harder.  It's like a written promise or contract for me to perform as I had originally intended.  My art is very organic and often does not end up how I originally imagined it.  If I am accepted, I'm going to have to hold to my original idea - this is pretty frightening to me, but I have to learn how to do it if I want to continue to be part of the art world.

I really don't think I'll be accepted though.  They announce in June.  What I should do is continue with the project either way.  I've been wanting to do this project for a while, so I might as well do it.  I'm sort of in a dead spot with my art right now, which is a big reason why it was so hard to to this submission.  I just have to push through it.

I'm still not very happy with my submission, but I'm glad that I did it.  It was good experience and now I have an artist bio at the ready.